Sunday, October 19, 2008

I've Become What you could never be

Me (7:16:44 PM): Beeteedubs, since I feel easily less awkward asking, did you learn anythign juicy from Sam over the summer?
Marie (7:17:11 PM): eww no I deleted his phone number a long time ago
Marie (7:17:14 PM): sorry.
Me (7:17:37 PM): I mean, when you texted him
Marie (7:19:09 PM): oh well not really
Marie (7:19:16 PM): just that he's not a virgin




This made me feel so much better.

The question pricked at me for a long time, and it clarifies so much.
Considering the fact the weekend I first confessed my crush on him, he confessed he already heard from my friends I am a total prude...
I never stood a chance, because he only wants one thing anyway.

This is the perfect chink in his armor. He can no longer play perfect as far as I am concerned; his high and mighty religious piety is fake.

I'm better off than he is.

I can do this now.

See you when I see you, Sam. I'm headed for better days now.

Hell, I looked in the mirror today and felt pretty.

This is the catastrophic day I've been waiting for to turn everything around.

And I feel good.

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